Questions without answers

Went to the lib with u today...

Was quite happy at first...

It was the first time...

After so long...

That i got to spend time with u again...

But the longer i spent there...

The more i dejected I was...

I felt so left out...

Are u purposely avoiding me?

I felt like a third party somehow...

I'm jealous...

I'm envious...

If only...

If only...

If only i could swap places...

Why????

I just cant help feeling lost and helpless...

I was in agony the whole while...

But i still had to keep my smiles up...

U were sitting right in front of me...

I just couldn't help but lok at u...

But the more i looked at u...

The more hurt i felt...

Those beautiful smile of urs...

Those laughters...

That i wanted so much to see...

Were there in front of me...

But i wasn't the one who made u laugh...

I wasn't the one who could make u smile...

And that...

Really pierced through my heart...

What i'd done for u...

Were they not enough?

Just to move ur heart in the slightest bit?

I...

Just what am i to u?