Fallen Shinigami

It's so damn hard...

To coordinate my actions to be contradictory to what i feel...

I'm pretty much skilled at it...

Used it so much so that it's become a habit...

But it's still hard no matter what...

Didnt feel like going out today...

But still went...

In the end also didn't really do anything much...

Sigh...

I cant help but think of u...

I want those moments back...

I came across this phrase...

"It's not possible for guys and girls to be good friends.The attraction will always get in the way."

I didn't believe that...

Until now...

Last year, when people teased us,I'd just dismiss them saying we're just good friends...

And that was what i really thought back then...

I suddenly remembered this phrase...

But in this case it's just not mere attraction...

It's grown out of control...

This silence...

This distance...

It's hurting me...

I cant even begin to explain how...

It's like we're strangers...

And i hate this...

"It's better to have loved and lost than not to love at all"

"Love helps us to gain and grow, even if u lose it"

Was reading chicken soup for the soul:teenagers' talk while waiting in popular...

Came across these 2 phrases...

It sounds quite true to me...

When u came into my life...

U gave me hope...

I opened up to u...

I told u things related to me that I have never told anyone else...

U helped me to trust others again...

Sadly...

Good things have to come to an end...

When u're doing this to me...

U take away all that i've gained too...

This pain is inexplicable...

Please dont torture me anymore...

I just want to spend time with u...