Fallen Shinigami

I'm losing my sanity...

A break would be just what i need...

But...

Still have to endure for one more week...

Before block tests are over...

Heard that there will be a parents' meet...

Fuck...

If i'd heard that earlier i would have prepared for block tests...

And after that...

Intensive training...

For A division...

Right after that...

Back to the books...

Will everything end?

I'm barely holding on to my consciousness...

Held together by a thin thread...

By u...

But it's breaking...

This thread can barely support the weight of my feelings...

I just want to disappear...

But this question pops out...

"Will u be able to live happily even if i die?"

Well i guess the answer to that is pretty much a yes...

I don't mean much to u...

But then again...

What i'm worried about is u...

Not how u'll live without me...

Everything's unpredictable...

So u might encounter "pleasant" surprises here and there...

And when it's big...

Can u handle it?

I just wanna be there for u when it happens...

But i wont be able to do so if i disappear...

If only there is some way...

To completely erase my existence...

And my memory of myself...

So that it seems like no one called Albert Ardy Gunawan ever existed...