I can't help but think how screwed up I am...
I thought of Eleanor also and I started to consider her...
Maybe it's the post-rejection syndrome or whatever shit...
But after thinking for so days...
I realised that...
You are still the one I want...
When any thing,no matter how small a thing,is brought up...
My first reaction is...
The first person to come to mind...
Wasn't her...
But you...
I decided to just let go...
No point in being a tyrant if it causes you to feel uncomfortable...
I told myself letting go so that you can be happy is the best way out...
But even after all this said and done...
I can't help but feel lonely...
And empty...
