Well...

Being home alone is idk...

Gets me emo i guess...

Or maybe i was already emo...

Can't really remember...

I wanted so badly to be more...

I tried so hard to be more...

I want to be more...

Than just your bro...

I want to be that special someone to you...

I know I'm greedy...

But I can't help feeling this way...

What would it take me to change your mind?

I'd do anything...

Anything at all...

And...

Am I not trustworthy?

Am I even a close friend?

Why is it that I tell you all my feelings and secrets...

But I'm always kept in the dark from all of yours?

I'm tired...

I wanna be a good friend...

A close friend...

But what am I now really?

Can one of you all tell me?

Maybe my existence is just an extra.

Without me everything'd be fine and better?

I really don't know who else i can fall back on...

Didn't realise that it's been one month since i last posted anything.

Well 2 weeks actually cause the last 2 weeks was in Tekong...

Well lots of stuffs happened...

Letters from me to her and to me again...

We're finally back to normal again...

I should be happy right?

But noo...

I'm a greedy bastard...

I want more...

I want to be beside her every second,every minute...

Sighs