Sucks

Suck

Suck

Suck

Hate missing u

Seems like i was the only one who didn't want things to end this way...

U had no problem at all...

I feel dumb...

Thinking of all those things i wanted to say...

Thinking of u all this while...

While u have someone else on ur mind...

I feel retarded...

I should have known when to give up...

fml...

Weekend was kinda wasted...

Totally didn't have the mood to study...

With the end of As coming closer and closer...

I find myself thinking of u even more...

Is everything gonna end this way?

Will there be no after?

Are we gonna go our separate ways?

I don't want that...

Should i write that letter and give it to u?

I'm not scared of giving it to u...

I have the courage to do crazy stuffs...

But the only thing i'm scared of...

Is how u'd react after reading the letter...

But if i don't give u the letter...

Then things are really gonna end like this...

I don't know what i should do...

Sigh...

I keep having simulations about the scenarios...

And i'd imagine us together...

What a loser eh?

I could only find the answer to happiness...

From my own delusions...

What a sucker...

Why are u so cold to me.................

Another sucky day i'd say...

Physics paper...

Was relatively easy...

But i didn't finish the SPA Planning...

Even though i know how to do it...

Sigh...

And diffraction came out...

Again?

Like in every paper 2 i do...

Always have diffraction...

And this sucks much...

I couldn't remember the definitions i tried to memorise...

And explanation questions...

And suggestion questions...

They suck...

Or maybe it's me who suck yea?

I should redefine my self esteem soon...

My underestimation of myself is still an overestimation of my capabilities

Maybe i'm just not cut out for this...

I'm a disappointment...To both my parents and myself...

And now after this i'm gonna put an extra burden on them...

Cause i'm pretty much sure my results won't allow me to go into NUS or NTU or SMU...

So i'll have to go overseas or go into a private uni...

I'm sorry...

For everything...

To everyone...

Sigh...

Feeling sucky...

Haven't been able to sleep well lately...

And all i can think about through he long nights...

Was u...

And i can't help but wonder...

Have i lost every meaning to u?

When i was there talking with Shu Li...

U didn't even look at me...

Let alone talk to me...

And the first words that came out...

Was asking about someone else...

I'm tired...

And no one seems to understand me huh.

Well they don't even bother with me after school ends anyway...

No one asks to see how i'm doing...

Well i may look happy for the most part in school...

But once i reach home...

It's hell...

I'm breaking down...

The thoughts of my efforts going down the drain...

And the thoughts of me meaning nothing to u...

They drive me crazy...

I just need someone to tell me...

I know that u've been bottling things up. What's wrong with u? Share with me.

Too bad i don't have such a person...

And why am i always misunderstood?

I try to cheer up people...

I really care about them...

And all i get in return are words of sarcasm...

And telling me to stay away...

Why do they think that i'm just pretending to be nice...

Or think that i'm a busybody...

I just don't want them to feel the same way i do...

Sigh...

I saw this show on Chn 5...

It's so coincidental?

This guy couldn't let go of his love...

Haha really sounds like me eh?

Even the girl's name is Audrey...

Sigh...

And what he said...

Was what i said...