YEAH!!!
I SUCK BIG TIME...
I'm just a fucking loser who cant do anything right...
The next important thing in my life after her...
Table tennis...
Has been taken away from me as well...
Played with Hwa Chong and JJ today...
Hwa Chong really expected to lose...
Nothing much to say...
But JJ...
Arthur and Fenghuan won...
If Nigel and i won...
we would have won JJ....
But i just have to screw up...
Like how i do everythime...
I'm just so fucked up...
What did i spend those long hours training for?
Even going for extra training in bukit gombak every saturday at 8.30 AM
It was so fucking close...
Why do i have to be so impatient???
I fucking screwed up the whole team...
It's all because of me that we lost...
I let down myself and the school...
I'm a fucking disgrace...
I should have known that anything i do will only result in another failure...
I shouldn't have tried at all...
I should have joined another cca in the first place...
Hahaha...
I'm really a sucker...
What can i do?
Nothing...
I cant even be of use to u...
And i cant achieve my own targets in table tennis...
Fuck it all...
Then what's the use of my existence now?
When i have failed 2 of my most important things?
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