Love and apathy

A shot pierced through me...

Was having an okay day in school...

When suddenly one of my classmates told me,"do u know that she likes another person already?"

I knew that...

But...

The words that he said carried a certain depth and a hidden meaning to me...

It took a while for them to sink into my mind...

When she first told me that she liked someone else,my mind was overing whether to believe her or not...

It's a convenient excuse for girls to turn down guys using that excuse...

In then end i slightly doubted that it was the case...

Since then,i've always thought that i'd still stand a somewhat slim chance...

If i worked harder, i might be able to move her heart...

But...

Today, everything's over...

My classmate asked her whether we're together since we're quite close...

And that was her answer...

She would never say this thing if she knew that my classmate would tell me about this...

My classmate isn't very close to me anymore...

So she'd know that we won't talk to each other much...

That has got to be why she told my classmate about this...

And...

Knowing her, her determination is quite short-lived...

She had a crush in the beginning of last year,but she pretty much got over him quickly...

But this time,it's been 4 months or more since she said she like another person...

This means that this time she's serious about it...

There's no room for me to intrude...

In the end i'm a loser...

A person she does not care about...

What am i to her?

A nuisance?

Is the reason she doesn't reject my approaches because of the pain she fear she'll inflict on me?

I don't even know anymore...

Why is the world always so unfair?

She's the only one i've been this serious about...

I really envy L and J...

There's no chance that u're reading this...

But if u are for some reason,please just tell me...

What am i to u?Am i just a substitute for that guy?

I love u...