Death,the only escape?

I just feel so lost now...

Nothing is working out...

I'm keeping my distance from u...

It's supposed to benefit both of us...

I have to learn...

How to live without u...

But I just can't take it...

It's taking all of my willpower to stay away from u...

Everytime i see u...

I just feel like talking to u...

But...

Words won't come out...

I'm afraid that if i start to speak, tears will start running down my cheeks...

Now i'm just an empty shell...

With nothing...

But it seems that it's working out fine for u...

How long has it been?

Since u last text me?

If I didn't text u...

U wouldn't even think of texting me right?

Am i just another passer-by in ur life?

I had a dream about us...

It ended happily...

But it's just not possible right?

I thought we were close...

But guess it was my own one-sided thoughts...

I just don't have the strength to pull through anymore...

Suicide came across my mind countless times...

I ward it off by gaming...

But the effect is gradually wearing off...

Even if i were to disappear...

Would u even notice?

Would u cry for me?

I guess not...

After all i'm not sure if i even left a speck of dust in ur life...

Just know that u're my everything...

I love u more than anything and anyone...

Even God...

Once everything breaks...

I'll just keep a watch over u from above...