Let me be something...

I muss you so so much...

All this time we've not talked...

Have I crossed your mind even once?

I'm running out of willpower...

I'm wearing thin...

I'm growing weak...

All this pretending is also becoming less convincing...

I'm smiling...

But my eyes are dead...

And my heart's bleeding...

My movements and gestures are those of a zombie...

Won't u come and find me please?

If only there was someway...

To let u know how I really feel...

To show u this blog...

Without telling you directly...

Maybe i should stop being so wishy-washy...

Maybe i should just come clean about my feelings for u...

I love u...

Maybe it seems that I'm overusing this word...

But that's how I really feel...

I love the way u talk...

I love the ur personality...

I love the way u make me feel...

I love everything about u...

Even ur imperfections...

For all these imperfections are also what makes u perfect...

These few days u were constantly on my mind...

I'm worried about how u're doing...

Were u fine all this while?

When i wasn't with u...

Maybe I'm just over-estimating my value to u...

Maybe all this while u just treated me like a substitute...

But i don't care...

I'm really worried about u...

I care about u...

Please don't act as if i don't exist...

It's hurting me...

Let me be near u...

I don't have to be someone to u...

U can treat me like a rubbish dump...

Where u dump all ur problems and woes...

At least that way...

I know that I'm still of some use to u...

At least I'm still something in ur life...

Rather than this non-existent existence...