Found out some things on teow's phone that i'd be better off not knowing...
Sigh...
So u msged him when u're bored yesterday...
Out of nowhere...
And not me...
So what am i to u?
I'd been holding onto this thin line on our relationship...
This thin line that said that we're siblings...
And well looks like that line finally snapped...
It couldn't carry the weight of my feelings after all...
Yeah...
Why didn't u find me when u were bored?
What did i exactly do to deserve this?
All i want is to see u happy...
And if possible,be the one who makes u smile...
Guess all my effort is gone...
Because of one small thing...
Sighs...
SO where do i really stand in ur mind now?
Less than a friend?
An acquintance?
I don't even know...
It really felt devastating...
To find that my space has been degraded so much...
I just wanted to disappear...
Didn't feel like going for frisbee or movie anymore...
But in the end decided to go...
Didn't want to pull everyone's mood down along with mine...
Sighs it's hard to think of others even when i can barely hold on...
But if i didn't think of them it wouldn't be me i guess...
It was tiring...
Having to smile...
To please everyone...
Even when i feel shitty inside...
Sometimes i wish i wasn't born too caring and sensitive to others...
It would have been best if i didnt exist from the start...
Sighs...
Well i guess love has a jacked up notion of happiness for some...
No pain no gain?
But haven't i suffered enough?
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