Fallen Shinigami

I dreamt...

Of u...

Now i just can't discern between reality and dreams...

Well i can...

But...

For that while...

I hoped...

It was real...

But i woke up and eveything returned to normal...

In my dream...

Everyone was against me...

I was accused for something which i didn't do...

The whole world stood firm against me...

I broke down...

Kneeling there crying...

Thinking to myself...

Is there anyone who will believe me?

Just as i thought of those words...

U came burstng into the room...

Seeing the state that i was in...

U cried for me...

And hugged me tightly...

I was overjoyed...

Because u still cared...

And u were willing to go to such extent just for me...

For this insignificant person...

I never felt happier in my life before...

Everything seemed so real...

I thought...

I didnt care anymore...

All I wanted then was just to go through every day with u by my side...

But as i stood up...

Everything vanished...

And i woke up...

My eyes were wet...

From tears...

Of happiness...

But in a moment...

I realised what i just experienced was nothing but a mere dream...

Reality cant be that good...

I tried to sleep again...

Wanting to go back to that dream...

But it's just not possible...

Tears trickled down my cheeks again...

This time because of the sadness from realisation...

Everything now is the opposite of that dream...

Why did everything came to this state?

I wanna go back to that dream...

And be with u forever...

Why did i even dream of that dream?

Because it's something that will never happen in real life?

I dreamt of it to satisfy my own emptiness?

But now I just feel more empty...

Now everything is just so screwed up...

Pieces of my heart are scattered everywhere...

I want us to go back to how we were...

When u came to my house on Sat...

There was so many things i wanted to tell u...

But in the end i couldnt bring myself to...

U were just sitting next to me...

I just kept on looking at u...

As i thought...

So far...

Yet so near...

Why?

Why?Why?

Why?Why?Why?

Why?Why?Why?Why?

Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?

Was all that surfaced to my mind...

Can u come back please?

It's just not the same anymore...

My life is different without u...

I'm feeling so lonely in the presence of ur absence...

Please?