Fallen Shinigami

Walking in the rain felt...kinda refreshing

For once...

Everything's so superficial..

Relationships...

Hard work...

Nothing good comes out of everything...

It's just stacking troubles after troubles...

And I've gotten so good at putting on my mask that I don't even feel anything anymore...

I just feel so...so lost...

Yet again..

I keep on being so pathetic...

Playing the victim...

Even after I told myself countless times that I'm stronger than before...

Yet with each new obstacles...
I keep getting crushed...

Without even seeing a tiny bit of my goals and hopes...

Seriously...

Why am I always the victim?

Victim of love

Victim of friendship

Victim of family

Victim of effort

Victim of health

Of...of everything...

I'd say I'm not so weak...

If I were..

I'd be the same as those who cut themselves and commit suicide...

I'd say I'm one who cheers up quickly...

But it's just that why is it me and always me?

Give me a break please...

And no one ever understands I guess...

No one even tries to...

Sigh...